The Regret of a Cheating Husband

Hana Silva POV:

I left the house early that morning, the divorce papers tucked into my bag, and drove to the cemetery. I needed to talk to Mom and Dad, to Grandma. It had been too long since my last visit, too long since I sought comfort in their silent presence.

"So much has happened, Mom," I whispered, my voice thick with unshed tears. My throat tightened, and the words caught, a knot of sorrow refusing to unravel. "I don't even know where to begin."

I tried to organize my thoughts, to tell them everything-the cancer, the baby, Anderson's betrayal. But the words wouldn't come. How could I burden them, even in death, with such pain? "Anderson... he hurt me, Mom. Really badly," I finally managed, the vague accusation a shield against the full, brutal truth. I didn't want them to worry. Not now.

I sat there for what felt like hours, the cold stone of their headstones a stark reminder of life's fragility. The decision solidified in my heart. I would tell Anderson everything. I would terminate the pregnancy, and I would divorce him. It had to be done.

The sky, as if mirroring my despair, began to weep. Fat raindrops splattered against the leaves, soon turning into a torrential downpour, accompanied by a rumble of thunder that echoed the turmoil within me. A sharp, searing pain erupted in my stomach, then my abdomen. My cancer, or my baby, or both, were protesting. I gritted my teeth, gripping my stomach, and started the arduous journey down the hill.

Anderson still wasn't home. I called him repeatedly, but the calls went straight to voicemail. The rain lashed down, blurring my vision, chilling me to the bone. Each unanswered call was another nail in the coffin of my hope. My heart grew heavy, sinking deeper into a cold, desolate place.

As dusk settled, painting the sky in bruised purples and grays, his call finally came through. I fumbled with the phone, my fingers numb with cold and fear. "Anderson? Are you home?" I asked, my voice barely a whisper.

A gasp, then a woman's low moan, echoed faintly from the other end. My world stopped. The sound was unmistakable. Katlyn. The blood drained from my face, leaving me cold and utterly numb. It was the low, guttural growl Anderson made when he was… satisfied. A sound I knew intimately, a sound he reserved only for moments of extreme pleasure. The thunder outside raged, but it couldn't drown out the sickening sounds of their lovemaking.

The call wasn't disconnected. I was forced to listen, a silent, unwilling participant in their grotesque symphony.

"Who do you love more?" Katlyn's voice, breathy and provocative, cut through the sounds of their intimacy.

Anderson chuckled, a low, arrogant sound that made my skin crawl. "You know it's always Hana, baby." My breath hitched. He loved me? After all this?

Then he laughed again, a dark, conspiratorial sound. "But with you, it's different. In bed? It's always you. You drive me wild."

The words struck me like a thousand shards of ice, embedding themselves deep in my heart. I was freezing, numb, a hollow shell. The dial tone echoed in my ears like a drill, boring into my skull long after he' d hung up.

I stood there in the pouring rain, laughing, a wild, hysterical sound that was quickly swallowed by the storm. Then the laughter turned to tears, hot and stinging against my cold cheeks. When a heart dies, I thought, even thunder becomes silent.

A blur of pain, then darkness. I woke up in a stark white room. A kind but somber-faced doctor stood over me. "I'm so sorry, Mrs. Humphrey," she began, her voice soft. "We lost the baby."

My eyes remained dry. My heart, it seemed, had no more tears to shed. It was over. The baby was gone. The doctor looked at me, expecting a breakdown, tears, a demand for explanations. But there were none. I had braced myself for a different kind of ending, a confrontation, a painful farewell. Instead, the universe had simply taken it away, quietly, brutally.

The baby, our baby. Gone. Just like that. A cold, empty space in my womb, a hollow echo in my heart. I had carried a life, a dream, within me. Now it was just… gone.

I curled up in the bed, finally letting the dam break. A gut-wrenching sob tore through me, followed by another, and another. Years of silent suffering, of pretending, of holding on, of trying to be strong – it all came crashing down. The pain, the betrayal, the fear, the loneliness, the loss of my baby, the terrifying reality of my own impending death. It all poured out in a torrent of anguish. The nurse, startled, hovered at the door, unsure how to intervene.

My phone buzzed. Anderson. He wanted to know if I' d made it home safely. He apologized for not being there, for losing track of time. He promised to make me soup. My vision swam through tears, but his words were sickeningly clear. He was still playing the devoted husband.

I laughed, a broken, cracked sound. I must be going insane. I' d just lost my baby, and my husband was sending me empty reassurances from his mistress's bed. I picked up the phone, my fingers still stained with the drying tears, and typed a reply.

"I' m at my mother' s place," I wrote, a lie that came surprisingly easy. "Needed some space. I' m fine."

Lies. They were so easy to tell. No wonder he was addicted to them. My face was a blank mask, my eyes devoid of emotion. Anderson, the man I married, had ceased to exist. He was a monster, a cruel joke. He had used my name, my body, our future, as a prop in his tawdry little sex games. I was nothing more than a cheap thrill, a topic for pillow talk.

No. No more. I wouldn't waste another second on him. No more hope, no more tears.